If you make a mistake and do not correct it, that is another mistake 

Today, although it is difficult for me to accept it, I am broken, it is difficult for me to find motivation to move forward.

That the person I loved just left me disappointed, don't cry, don't beg, just let them go, but I'm sinking into a darkness that I don't like and I notice it. Since that day, I no longer read, I barely study, I did not miss anything to exercise and now it is intermittent, I stopped meditating, I have seen shorts on YouTube and that worries me because before they did not even attract my attention and now I see them because they make me forget about my reality.

All those things I have been doing for a long time, however I have avoided them because it is difficult for me to accept that it was all a lie, to give an example I wanted to watch a game of the world chess championship with this person and so with the rest of things, I have a cognitive fusion from which I have been fleeing with avoidance and bad habits.

This is not good because I am not giving everything of myself so that the company I am creating can move forward, I am failing those who do trust me, because of someone who did not.

I still know how to chess, I still know how to program, I still have crazy ideas for projects, I still have a healthy and fit physique, I am still a very empathetic person, I still want to finish those books I left on standby, I still want to continue learning about the word of God even if it is difficult for me to follow it, I still want to be with a woman who really loves me but with the wisdom of knowing how to be alone if that moment it never comes and above all to be a man of whom I feel proud.

Forgive me for being weak, for attacking the work of years, for giving too much to those who did not deserve it, for neglecting yourself waiting for something that was never going to happen.

Today I am broken, but I promise you that I will get up and in the not too distant future you will be proud of me.